Monday, April 28

..demi cinta..

kata orang, demi cinta, kamu rela melakukan segalanya..
kaki di kepala, dan kepala dijadikan kaki
kata orang juga, if you love someone, you'll set them free..
kalo jodoh kan gak lari kemana

kalo kata gue, semuanya itu hanya kata-kata berbunga sebagai penghiburan hati..
kata gue juga, kalo kamu memang mencintai seseorang dengan sepenuh hati dan segenap jiwa, sebisa mungkin kamu tidak akan pernah melepaskannya..

kata gue, manusia itu bukan Tuhan, jadi sejatinya membuat kesalahan..
dan sejatinya lagi, jika ada orang yang berbuat kesalahan, bukan hanya dimaafkan, tapi diberitahu dimana letak kesalahannya, supaya gak melakukan kesalahan yang sama..
jika memang orang itu mengagungkan & mengatasnamakan tindakannya demi cinta, maka seharusnya orang yang melakukan kesalahan itu dibimbing, bukannya malah dijauhkan dan dilepaskan..

menurut gue, cinta itu hanya ungkapan kata kiasan yang jika diucapkan berulang-ulang, akan hilang maknanya..
hanya orang yang mengucapkan kata cinta, yang tahu benar, seberapa besar kadar cinta yang ia miliki,
dan hanya ia juga yang mengetahui apakah cinta itu hanya cinta sesaat, cinta sejati atau cinta palsu alias cinta pura-pura..

kata gue, semakin sering orang mengucapkan kata "cinta" ke dirimu, maka semakin terlihat betapa palsu dan hambar ucapannya..
kata gue, cinta itu tidak diungkapkan dengan kata-kata berbunga, melainkan dengan tindakan..
menurut gue, tidak ada yang namanya cinta suci, karena semua itu diukur dengan untung - rugi
dan gue yakin, hanya sebagian kecil orang yang menjalin kasih tanpa pamrih, dimana semuanya dilakukan memang karena dasar cinta
semua orang pasti punya "hidden agenda" dan hanya ia serta Tuhan yang tahu, apa agenda tersembunyinya itu

cinta hanya membuat orang sengsara & menderita
hanya akal pikiranlah yang bisa membuat kita bahagia dan itu tidak ada hubungannya sama sekali dengan cinta & perasaan..


(..ditujukan bagi orang-orang yang mengagungkan cinta tapi bertindak sebaliknya, orang-orang yang mempertanyakan makna cinta, dan orang-orang yang tidak mempercayai cinta sama sekali..)

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..sepenggal puisiku di pagi hari..

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Atas nama cinta

Semuanya dipertaruhkan

Namun ketika rasa percaya tak lagi ada

Haruskah kita terus bertahan ?

.................................


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Friday, April 25

..an email to my dear, meldhya..

Dear Meldhy,

First of all, I'd like you to know that my condition in writing this is far away from being emotional, no more anger, not even sad, just being so calm.

This morning, when you said you wanna keep a distance with me, I think it answers all my thoughts & doubts I had lately. Ever since last week, when you wanna have my permission to go out for a movie with Erna, I already questioned myself about you and of course, about us. This case might be cleared on that nite, but it got me thinking, although not pretty hard. Then, later this week, when you were going to Bekasi and I asked you for how long you'd gonna hide me in front of your family and you just asked me to be patient, it adds another drop of thought that I almost forget. Yesterday, when I walked from the office to PIM for buying a mail box, those questions & the thoughts played ragingly in my head again. And this morning, when you said you would come & go with me tonite but wanted to leave early, with reason that somehow I felt it just a made-up one.

I don't know, Mel.. Sometimes I'm tired being so high temper, dealing with stuffs which I shouldn't deal with, and sometimes, I'm longing to have my life back. The life where I shouldn't have to worry about other people besides my family. The life where I could be me, where I could do whatever I want, without having to be so dependent with others. But then I said to myself, perhaps I should go through this with whatever reason behind it. And if you wanna know something, mel, the more I get to know you and the more I attach with you, the more I want you to be a part of my life yet the more unclearer future I'll have with you.

You might called me that I worry to much, worry of things that might not be happening at all. You probably would say that I have to think in a positive way, but I just can't. Every night I talk to myself, that I felt like I'm heading to nowhere land. Every night too, I keep asking the same question, what agenda you have towards me, because everybody has one. And from that question, my assumption begins. Please know that it's not an accusation nor a bad prophecy about you, but it's purely an assumption that I had since I felt I know nothing about you. Those assumption really freaks me out, mel.. I really hope it's not true, but I don't know, sometimes your act kinda show me that it is true.

Anyway, maybe you're doing the right thing for wanting to keep a distance with me. I never have any intention to push you, but if you felt that way, I truly am sorry. You could take as much time as you want, I won't have any objection against it. I will accept it, and if in the end, you wanna break up with me, I'll understand.

Thanks for everything you've done towards me. No matter what, I can't deny and fool myself that having you in my life for these 4 months has given me an uncomparable joy and brought me happiness. I'm being grateful to God for ever introducing me to a person like you.

I love you and I'm sorry for ever hurting you.

- yulia -

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..rusaknya jumat pagi gue..

Jadi gini, gue barusan ditelpon temen gue, dia bilang kalo ntar malem dia tetep jadi pergi ama gue, tapi dia mau pulang cepet. Lah ?? Secara yaaaaa, gue awalnya tuh gak mau ngajak dia pergi, trus dia merajuk minta diajak. Yo wes, gue ajaklah dia. Eeeeeeeh, sekarang dia bilang mau pulang duluan ? Acaranya jam 7:30, and dia bilang kalo dia mau pulang jam 8. Iya kalo acaranya mulai jam 7:30 tepat, kalo gak ? Gue paling males kalo ada orang pergi ke suatu acara trus acaranya belum dimulai, eh udah ada yang gelisah, pengen pulang. Ketauan dari awal tuh gak usah merajuk, merengek2x minta diajak. Secara gue udah RSVP, bilang pasti dateng, eeeeeeeh, sekarang dengan seenaknya aja gitu dia bilang begitu ? Dia bilang siy dia ada acara kantor, and mendadak baru dibilangin kemaren. Well, menurut gue, mendadak itu kalo baru dibilangin 5 menit sebelum dia telp gue. Lah ini, udah tau dari kemaren, tapi kenapa juga dia baru bilang sekarang ? Padahal dia semalem smsan ama gue, bilang kalo pasti dateng. Alasan yang dibuat2x banget, ada acara kantor, emang paling gampang tuh kasih alasan harus kerja.

Susah emang, kalo orang itu gak terjadwal, gak punya prioritas and yg jelas gak bisa nepatin janji. Ini bukan sekali dua dia gak nepatin janji. Kalo cuma sekali-kali siy masih dimaafkan, tapi ini udah berulang kali and kayaknya dia masih gak nyadar kalo dia itu punya hobi tidak menepati janji, yg sangat tidak menyenangkan bagi orang lain, dalam hal ini gue.

Huh, bikin rusak pagi gue aja itu orang. Mendingan sekarang gue ke PIM, jalan2x, daripada misuh2x yg membuat hari gue makin rusak. Eh, tapi sebelum selesai, ijinkan akyu mengumpat dulu ya, "IAT NGICUK LO..TENYOM ANCOL !!"

- me signing off -

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Tuesday, April 22

Glosarium Bahasa Indonesia

http://pusatbahasa.diknas.go.id/glosarium/index.php

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..kreasi ibukyu..




Beberapa waktu yang lalu, ibukuh ke mayestik, and beli jeruk bali. Sebenernya gak ada yang into jeruk bali so much in da family, tapi berhubung ibukyu ingin sekali para keponakan mengenal permainan tradisional yang sekarang udah gak ada lagi, makanya dia beli satu buah jeruk bali ukuran sedang. Hasil kreasi ini cuma standar, karena kalo mau yang sophisticated, agak ribet buatnya. She just made this less than 15 mins.


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..Happy Birthday Mom..




My mom turns 68 on April 21st and as always, we never t go out and celebrate it in an expensive way. It's only us, the small family, celebrate it at home, with her cooking and a medium birthday cake for the rest of the family's member.

Happy birthday, mom.. You know I love you and care so much about you. May GOD gives you health, happiness and HIS blessing so you could live 10 more years from now. You know I can't live without you and I still need you no matter what.

Love you, mom :))
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Monday, April 21

..batman bin superman..

This story is about a guy who goes to a police station to make a report and here is the starting of the story.

Man : " Hi sir, I would like to complain about one of your police officer, who have assaulted me at the cafe."

Sergeant : "Can I have your name pls?"

Man: "Batman"

Sergeant: "Batman?"

Man: "Yes, Batman."
 
Sergeant: "You trying to be funny is it?"

Man: "No."
 
Sergeant: "Than what is your father's name?"

Man: "Suparman"
 
Sergeant: "Hey,you trying to be funny is it?"

Man: "No."
 
Sergeant: "You are telling me that you are BATMAN, the son of SUPERMAN

Man: "Yes"
 
Sergeant: "You really too much you know, I can charge you for this offence for lying your name to an officer. Show me your IC."



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Friday, April 18

..lunch today, Burger King !!..




dari pagi, gue sudah set utk makan burger-nya Burger King as my lunch. Jalan ma temen2x kantor ke PIM jam 12, mereka makan di PIM 2, sementara gue sendirian ke PIM 1. Sambil ngantri, gue liat2x menu, bingung juga mau beli burger yang mana. Akhirnya, gue putuskan utk beli paket menu whopper mushroom yg udah ada medium kentang & coke. Mbak-nya nanya, apakah gue mau ganti coke-nya dg coke zero, gue bilang aja ok, eeeeeeh, gak taunya gue dapet coke yg lebih besar & dapet hadiah mouse pad. Trus, dia nawarin lagi, apakah gue mau beli hershey pie, krn dalam rangka promo, jadi kalo beli pie pada saat kita beli package menu, harganya bisa lebih murah. Hmmmm, secara lagi laper banget, jadi gue iyakan saja (and gue rasa, mbaknya bisa merasakan kelaparan gue dari raut muka gue yg udah gak keruan, kekekekeeekkk..). Total kerusakan = 59ribu sajah.

Nyampe kantor, tanpa banyak jeda (kecuali pas ngambil piring di pantry utk tempat kentang), gue langsung melahap makanan di hadapan gue and akhirnya, dalam waktu 1 jam, gue menghabiskan makan siang gue ituh.

Sekarang kekenyangan banget, pengen menghirup udara segar dulu di balkon :))
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Wednesday, April 16

..jam 9:00 - 13:00..

Nyampe kantor pagi ini, dah disambut dengan "mbak, LAN-nya mati.." Asyiiiiiik, krn itu artinya, TIDAK BEKERJA. Tapi gue harus kroscek ke IT M'sia, mau nanya kenapa LAN mati and ampe berapa lama. Orang IT bilang, kalo ada link yg putus, and tim yg sedang bekerja belum bisa mastikan kapan jaringannya akan normal kembali. Gue harap-harap cemas, semoga aja it will recover at 5PM. Berhubung i'm dead without the connection, so i'm thinking, "why don't I go to PIM or Citos for a free wi-fi ?". But then I have another idea, "why don't I just watch a dvd on my pc ?". I was lucky cause I'm bringing a pirates of the carribean 3, so there I was, logging in to ym via cell phone, watching the dvd on my screen's monitor, while the screen's pc showed my works (read : pretending that I was busy working).

But DARN, kesenangan gue akhirnya harus terhenti karena retno yg duduk di belakang gue bilang, "LAN-nya dah jalan lagi" Aaaaargh, langsung deh datang itu imel2x kerjaan and gue mau tidak mau harus mematikan dvd gue yang udah berjalan selama 1 jam 15 menit and kembali bekerja. Tapi secara yaaaah, aura bekerja gue sudah agak memudar, tadi jam 11:30 gue kabur aja ke mayestik, beli sandal pengganti yang kemaren. And take a look at it, isn't it pretty ? My new office pink slipper. And it's cheap too, cuma 9.900 rupiah saja. Gue kasih 10 ribu, tapi karena gak ada kembalian 100 perak, akhirnya dikembalikan dalam bentuk permen (emangnya sekarang 1 permen = 100 ya ? yg gue tau, dulu dg 100 perak bisa dapet 3 permen)

Abis beli sendal, langsung ditutup dengan makan gado-gado plus sate dan minum 2 botol S-tee (buat gue, teh paling enak ya Tekita, tapi sayang, dah gak produksi lagi, hiks..), trus balik lagi ke kantor deeeeeeeehhh..

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Dave Cook - Always be my baby




Dave Cook is singing always be my baby, a Mariah Carey's song on AI's stage tonight and he nailed it, gave a brilliant performance. Listen to what the judges said towards him.
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Tuesday, April 15

..sandal jepitkuh..




..setelah sekian lama gue jadikan sandal kantor (yg jelas lebih dari 1 taun), akhirnya gue harus memensiunkan sandalkyu inih..as y'all could see, bentuk sandal jepit gue ini sudah gak jelas lagi juntrungannyah..hmmm, sepertinya malam ini akyu harus hunting cari sendal jepit baru, biar besok gue gak harus liat kiri kanan buat minjem sandal yang tak bertuan yang disimpen di kolong meja, kekekekekeeeeeekkk..
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Monday, April 14

..@ spageddies - senayan city..




sembari nunggu ujan reda, ngadem di spageddies dulu.. berhubung udah brain dead krn ujan, jadilah poto2xnya gak ada yg beres :))
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Friday, April 11

..jumat ini jam 4 sore..




..lagi bosen di meja kantor, jadi gue & budi duduk di balkon, cari udara segar & foto2x aja dg background jalanan..
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..bang iaaaaaaaaannnnnn..




..gue gak bisa komentar lagi lah, pokoknya, selamat menikmati and siap menerima celaan, kekekekekeeeeeeeekkkk (thanks to ide gila risty & meldy)..
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..GIGI..




Ini beberapa foto GIGI waktu manggung semalam di FKG Moestopo utk acara Clas Mild on Campus. Mereka manggung dari jam 23:30 mpe 00:30. Sumpaaaaaaah, deg2xan ajah pas mau foto ama Armand, while it's not my first time took a pix with him. But still, i'm speechless and dunno what to say to him (pentingkah harus say something ??). Gue gak ngambil banyak foto karena gue mau enjoying da music. Armand, I LOVE YOUUUUUUUU (inilah yang berulang kali gue teriakkan semalam)..
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Thursday, April 10

..bete berat..

..niat mau pulang cepet jadi terhalang gara2x ujan deres banget. gue pengen pulang cepet, biar bisa istirahat dulu di rumah sambil nonton Idol Gives Back sebelum pergi lagi jam 9 buat nonton GIGI di FKG Moestopo (acara Clas Acoustic - AN Teve). Tapi apa daya, gue terperangkap di kantor, mesti menyelesaikan report yang belum kelar2x krn source file-nya ble'ek, trus gue gak ada mobil utk pulang krn dipinjem ma kakak gue hari ini, jadi kalopun mau ngojek, mikir2x seribu kali, secara gue gak bawa jaket, and baju gue tipis..

Duuuuuuuh, semoga aja jam 6 ntar, semuanya getting better *AMEEEEEENNNNN...*

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..sparca @ gran kemang hotel..




acara rutin tiap rabu, denger live jazz music by Interlude from 9 - midnite. Tapi semalam, 9 April, we were on a mission, hooking up Kepa & Miun.. Anyway, selagi mereka berdua ngobrol2x, kita asik2x foto ajah (besides enjoyin da music opkors..)
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Tuesday, April 8

..beneran gak siy ?..

Ini lagi rame di imel, jadi gue posting di mp ajah, sapa tau ada yang kerja di kepolisian (ato punya kenalan polisi biar dicek kebenarannya)

PEMBERITAHUAN!!! Segala pelanggaran di jalan Raya baik naik motor/mobil JANGAN MINTA DAMAI, MEMBERI UANG = BERARTI MENYUAP (Biarpun Polisi Tawari Damai Karena itu HANYA PANCINGAN / JEBAKAN) Lebih baik minta ditilang nanti diurus di pengadilan. Ini instruksi Kapolri kepada jajaran polisi - Bagi POLISI yg bisa membuktikan warga yg Menyuap Polisi- Dapat Bonus Rp. 10jt / warga dan Penyuap kena hukuman 10 tahun. PENTING HARAP JANGAN MAIN2....Info tsb banyak YG tidak tahu. Jadi Polisi cari2 KELEMAHAN / KELENGAHAN kita biar Menyuap. DI JKT/SBY sudah banyak yg kena Jebak karena Tidak tahu Instruksi Ini.

Sekian dan terima kasih.

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..most popular guy in prison..
















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Monday, April 7

..Insya Allah 10 Menit..

Hari Minggu kemaren, gue ke kawinan temen gue di Depok. Perjalanan Depok - Jakarta - Depok itu asli maceeeeeetttttttt bangeeeeetttttt, bikin jengkel aja. Tapi, waktu otw ke Depoknya gak gitu berasa, karena temen gue nelp, jadi gak bete2x amat.

Naaaaaah, pas pulangnya itu, selain macet yang panjang, gue pun pengen ke WC, trus, biar gak mikirin mesti ke WC, gue liat2x sign board di kiri kanan jalan and asli, waktu gue baca sign board ini, gue ngakaknya minta ampun, "Insya Allah 10 Menit".

Berarti warga Depok sendiri udah gak bisa memprediksi kemacetan yang ada di daerah mereka, sampe ditulisin Insya Allah begitu. Tapi menurut gue, patut jadi contoh juga buat para developer yg utk ngejual property-nya suka lebai and bilang "10 menit dari Sudirman", padahal kenyataannya bisa nyampe 30-60 menit dari Sudirman.

Enivei, sign board ini beneran buat gue lupa kalo gue harus ke WC utk beberapa waktu, and untung aja, 100-200 meter dari sign board ini, udah gak padat merayap lagi and gue menemukan pompa bensin utk mengeluarkan hasrat yang sudah tak tertahankan lagi :))

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..dari depok ke jakarta..




Hari minggu kemaren, 6 April 2008, minta temenin Meldy ke kawinan temen di Depok. Nah, ini waktu perjalanan balik dari depok ke jakarta, makan waktu hampir 3 jam aja deeeeeeeeehhhh... Dan daripada bosen, foto2xlah kita di mobil, dari terang ampe gelap..
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Wednesday, April 2

Phats And Small - This Time Around




Been listening to their CD since last Sunday, browse the youtube and got the clip. Let's go back to 5 years ago, everybody :))
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Pulang by Float




Kalo kemaren gue udah upload lagunya, nah sekarang videonya.. Sederhana banget klip-nya, tapi i like the song so much..
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Jeremy by Pearl Jam




Jeremy is a combination of a couple kids - one he got in a fight with in school who was a bully and bullied others. The other was a newspaper article about a kid who was ignored and belittled by his parents and friends. He asked the teacher for permission to leave the room for a moment, only to return with a gun, saying he got what he went for. He shot himself in the head in front of the class.
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Hollywood by Collective Soul




One of my favorite alternative band. This song is their first single from their latest album, Afterword.
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Syesha - If I Were Your Woman




Gue denger lagu ini and merindiiiiiiiiiiiing banget denger suaranya, plus kata2xnya yang keren :))

- enjoy -
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..mimpi gue semalem..

- berawal -

Dia ngajak gue miting ke kantor NTS. Karena kantornya itu deket ama kantor NSN, and kita juga masih di waiting area, jadilah gue bilang pak Jeff utk maen2x bentar ke gedung sebelah. Trus gue keluar gedung, naek jembatan penyebrangan and sampelah di NSN, ngumpul ama Ge, Dheva & Lany (padahal in real life, Ge & Dheva udah gak di NSN lagi..). Gak berapa lama langit gelap banget, trus turun ujan and pas gue mikir2x, gimana niy baliknya ke gedung NTS, eeeeeh, pak Jeff sms gue, "The meeting rescheduled to Tuesday". Berbahagianya gue, krn gue bisa melanjutkan obrolan2x gue ama mereka.

- berakhir -

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Tuesday, April 1

..minggu siang..




..hari minggu kemaren, jalan ke glodok ama pacarkuh, meldyana damayanti..perginya naek busway dari ratu plaza, trus bis dari glodok ngebusway lagi and makan siang di sabang, and pulangnya naek patas 44..
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..sumpek berattttssss..

..sekedar menumpahkan kesumpekan karena kerja yang gak abis2x. belum selesai gue ngerjain satu hal, eeeeeeh, udah dateng lagi imel yang menambah kerjaan gue, dan semuanya itu udah harus kelar by jumat, belum lagi reports, mulai dari yang monthly ampe quarter, juga udah harus diselesaikan segera, mana kemaren boss gue minta gue utk beberapa waktu ke depan lembur sampe jam 12 malem. whaaaaaaattttt ???? there goes my social life, my family times, my tv times, my sleeping times, and for sure, my AI times ugh, mau menghirup udara segar dulu di balkon kantor ah, biar enak ini kepala..

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