sumtin wrong wit my tummy or perhaps the digestive organ, feel lotsa gas inside and wanna throw up everytime i eat sumtin.. i hope it's only my ulcer, although I really don't want it, but rather than i have some new kind of illness which will freak me out & makes me to go to doctor back & forth..

i bring my pills though, but i won't touch them til i felt really sick and when i felt that I must go to a doctor then it's time for me to take my pills.. It's not that I don't like going to a doctor, but perhaps it's about the age thing which makes me don't wanna go to doctor and find out that I have something that I should be careful about. I realize that I'm not living a healthy life these days. Drinking wine most of the weekend, smoking everyday (and I must reduce it), less sleep, not eating right, although I go to the gym two times a week, but it doesn't mean a thing.

I thought I'll be okay today, since I already went out in Saturday evening, and rest for the whole day on Sunday and didn't go clubbing on Friday nite, while I really wanted to go to X2, the new club in Plaza Senayan. I left early on Friday, only 1-hour early, got home, had a massage then sleeping for the rest of the nite.. When I woke up on the following morning, I felt so fresh.. That's why I still couldn't believe that I'm still sick until today. Good thing this weekend is a long weekend, so I could use it to rest (read : long hours of SLEEP)

gawaaaattttt... I think I'm gonna be sick, while tonite and tomorrow I already have plan to go out. You know, it's weekend which means time to socialize, partying & have fun. I really don't wanna get sick but who won't get it if you walked under the rain almost everyday, stayed up late, slept around midnite and as far as I could remember, I haven't got any decent rest since the day I left Nokia and now I guess my body gets exhausted and need some rest.

But the question is, why now ? Why on Friday ? And why when my boss isn't around ? Why not I had it next Monday or Tuesday ?

My neck is so stiff, my waist like i'm in my period, crampy and something wrong with my ulcer. Not to mention that I kinda dizzy rite now. I think if I'm not getting any better, I'm gonna leave for home pretty soon and rest for couple of hours before heading for a party tonite, that if I could make it.

It's already 1:30, and I must fight myself to open my eyes & hope that my eye-lids cooperate with me. Aaaaaaaaarrrrggggh, my ulcer hurts so bad. I think I'm going home now.

Meet Jason aka JKriv, bassist of Tortured Soul, the band which CD has been repeatedly play on my laptop & stereo set since 4 days ago.


The band performed in Java Jazz Festival for 2 times and I saw it both of their performance. Their music is so different. I mean, it's a chill-out/dance kinda music which usually played by a DJ, but it's played by 3 people, bass-drum-keyboard and you would be amazed with their live show. I didn't stop dancing from their 1st song to the last one & so did everyone else in the crowd.

The crazy thing I did on the following morning was I sent an email to him and said that I did enjoy his play, because the way he played his bass was so enjoyable & the way he moved make me turned on :)) I might be crazy but that's what happen, seriously..

Anyway, I hope they come back for the 3rd times to Jakarta next year as I really love their music.. Who knows, he replied my email, we chat then when he come here, we could meet up.. I love their music very much !!